Frustrated and Disappointed

Hihi.... I am back.... I wish I will never write anything inside my blog..... But, sometimes many unhappy things can't store too much inside my heart.... It hurts me deeply..... I feels very disappointed and frustrated with all my friends.... Is it I am the one who had changed??? Or the human behavior will changed just like the weather??? Or maybe I am the one that think too much??? All in my life, I just wanna make friends with all the people surrouding me.... I am a watever guy... I can be nice if you all know me well.... but it is impossible..... Human behavior is like this---- Be nice with you as long as it benefits themselves: Be ignorence after no more benefits for themselves.... Although I had so many friends surrounding me but I feels like all the people surrounding me are wearing a mask on their own face.... try to show their positive side to me..... It is no meaning to have these kinds of friends... But what I will do is I will try to forgive them and treat them as normal friends.... Sometimes I also wearing a mask on my face... I try to be happy and communicate nicely with all my friends..... But the result is not what I want.... They treat me good whenever I can help them solve their problems, but treat me badly after I can't help them.... Really disappointed with this kind of friends... I have many unhappy things want to share with a person that are truely trusted and honestly friend... I hope I can find this person as fast as I can... All I want is a meaningful life which consists familyships, friendships and a trusted life partner.... Haha... My life partner should be the one that can feels what I am thinking now... Feels better after write out my feelings inside my blog.... ^^ Thats all for today.... nitez...