好久好久没 Update 了~~~~

好久好久没写blog了，多么希望再也不会在这里发泄心情。。。2012年对我来说是充满波折和痛苦的一年。但是也有喜也有乐的一年。。。妹妹归西了，暗恋好久的女孩也有男朋友了，这些都让我伤心流泪。。。一瞬间，我可接受不到这些挫折。。。原本想在2012年的圣诞节送礼物和向你再次表白，但是意外中，希望变成绝望，谢谢你给绝望，谢谢你让我在2012年反醒，原来一直以来都是我心甘情愿的等待，相信距离不是问题，但是，最后还是失败。。2013年，我希望工作顺顺利利，事业有成，好让我能孝敬父母。。。晚安咯~~~ ^^

Not feeling great this moment~~~

Yesterday I had my pre-graduation photo taking event..... But, I spoil the picture dy.... >.< I really feel sorry because I am the one who not looking at the camera... but, I want to clarify that I was hear that the photographer ask me to turn half of the face only... yet, after the pictures comes out, because of me, the picture is not perfect anyone... >.< I was felt sorry and really upset due to my fault... Another bad news is I hear that I can't graduate with all my fellow friends on this coming convocation due to my extension of studies.... I was feel like not really happy and upset coz yesterday photo taking event may the last chance to left our memory as history.... =( Thus, all this bad news were affect my emotion juz now... Just now I went for BBQ, but,I was unhappy and nothing to say..... I was not emo but yet it is emo..... I emo is because the chances together we laugh and smile is getting smaller and smaller..... after that all of us may separate from each others.... I do will miss all the 4 years moment with all of you.... I appreciate everything of what I have now.... I will miss all of you..... ^^

Current Feeling, Current Status.... =(

It has been long time didn't write my blog dy.... Currently I was feel like wanna crying after get scold by father because wrong in passing message.... I was tired since week 5 until now week 9.... 8 more weeks later I will free from all this messy life.... Since this is my last semester, so there are such an overload assignments, midterms and presentations which are continue coming.... Last Saturday, I had 2 midterms in same day, but the fact is I totally blank out when answering the questions even though the questions are very direct.... I was like losing hope and disappointed with myself because didn't practice well in doing homework.... On the other hand, my friends always say that I am very busy and seldom go out with them, but the fact is I was really busy in handling other works such as managing the house rental and repairing applications.... In addition, I was preparing the documents required by the university in order for my next semester internship.... I was like running out of energy and passion of studies.... Pressure and stress are coming in my current life, I need someone to share my feeling and listen to my heart.... Yesterday, I was rushing to do my e-commerce written report from 10pm until 5am in the morning, even though I was tired to go for 9.30am class, but I still have to attend so that I will not lose any important information... Today, after presenting e-commerce web pages presentation, my tutor said that I was too weak in transfer my message to other people, Haha..... In my heart, I wanna told her that "It is fact", because until now 21 years old, I am still single and available BECAUSE I do not know how to express my feeling.... I have been rejected by my dreaming girlfriend once and twice.... Maybe, I am really lack of expressing skills... >.

Lonely.... ( >.< )

Today while chatting wif someone in fb, he told me and say that I am pity because I go everywhere also alone.... No friends accompany me go shopping and anywhere... >.< Hahahaha.... I told him that I was alone becoz my friends some had go for internship and some had moved to other campus.... But, after think awhile, I suddenly had the feeling that I was alone... At this moment, I wonder that whether you can lend me ur arms and lay beside you and express my feeling.... Maybe I was too emotional, but I will wait for ur decision, as u say, maybe the time has not come yet and u are not ready, but u has the right to choose and make ur decision.... Hopefully I will receive favorable news from you.... take care.... ^^

Updates...... ^^

看到你的Blog。。。想起了我们大家快快乐乐的日子，就像“那些年”一样，有不同的回忆，不停的笑声。。。^^ 你要加油喔。。。。=)